Monday, June 6, 2011

感慨

又过了一个集训营,是我在鼓队的最后一个集训营了。
没有想过我会带新生,结果我就和世炜一起带了。

结业礼我看被我带的半旧生打鼓的时候,
真的很想很想哭。
他们真的很努力。
真的进步很多。

新生,辛苦你们了。

大家都没有放弃过。
加油。

其实有很多话想讲,
但是不知道怎样讲。

我就要离开了,
离开主席这个位子,
离开隆中这个鼓队,
离开六年的中华。

我的中学有了鼓队,
以后什么都无憾了。

我不是一个很好的带队人,
但是我每次带队之前都会备该备的课,
都会安排应该安排的时间,
都会很尽力的教好大家。

所以各位被我带过的人,
希望你们可以感受到我的用心。
今天我用一百分的用心带你们,
明天请你用两百分的用心带回你们的下一代,
而且要带得更好更好。

今天我跟你们讲的所有可以让你们感动的话,
明天请你把同样的话告诉你们的下一代,
让这种精神一代一代传下去。

今天我一个一个在你们的耳边叫你们加油,
明天请你也对你们的下一代做这样的动作,
请你们一定要不断的鼓励你们的下一代。

今天我用整个心来爱你们,
明天请你也用整个心来爱你们的下一代。

请你们,
真的请你们。

整个过程就算辛苦,
请你们一定不要放弃。
因为只要肯坚持,
没有什么事是做不到的。

眼泪流过就算了,
但是请你们一定要记得眼泪流下来的价值,
千万不要让眼泪白流。

我就要离开了,
最舍不得的,
竟然是一群又一群被我带过的人,
因为我真的很爱你们。

看着你们进步是多么感动的事情。
看着你们坚持的样子是多么感动的事情。
因为你们给我的感动太多,
所以我才更加忘不了你们。

如果我还有更多时间带着你们多好。
如果我还有更多能力带着你们多好。

请你们一定不能放弃。
请你们一点要坚持下去。

Thursday, September 2, 2010

almost all the time,
i won't admit i myself as a coward person.
until my tears breakdown.

i think i need your shoulder,
but i dare not to do so.

so now,
what i need is a large amount of COURAGE.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

最近

it has been a long time since i last updated my blog.

最近我的生活,
很充实。

早上5.15起床,
来到学校睡觉 / 准备Trial,
上课睡觉,
下课去联课处,
上课准备Trial,
下课又去联课处,
放学练习练到6.30pm,
回家冲凉吃饭,
准备Trial,
1.30am睡觉。

已经很久没有9.00pm睡觉的好习惯,
已经很久没有好好跟朋友谈天,
已经很久没有下食堂。

考试给压力,
老师给压力,
教练给压力,
连我的头也在给我压力。

我知道这是过渡期,
过了就会没事,
我相信自己可以做到。

这段时间,
我也很需要关心,
我也很需要支持。
可不可以不要只过来问公事?
I need all of you.

头痛严重恶化。
辛苦。

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

开心了

我知道我是时候长大了,
是时候照顾别人了.
现在是我的摸索期,
还找不到明确的方向.
可是我会努力^^

慧慧老师说:
"主席只是一个名,
不要为了那个名而变成另一个人.
嘉敏还是嘉敏,
傻婆还是傻婆."

原来不只在朋友,
连在老师眼里面我也是个傻婆.
可恶~

刚开始我真的迷失自己,
可是现在慢慢找回了.
至少到目前为止,
我还没有埋怨过.
让自己忙碌的日子其实还蛮实在.

一起加油啦!!
起跑后绝不撤退^^!!

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

今天是7月20了
是09/10职位团的最后一天..

说到尾,
我还是会怀疑我自己..
是不是不能再用轻轻松松的姿态去对待事情?
我一定要每天苦口苦面才叫正经?
性格相反是不是真的会擦出火花?

我想肯定自己,
但我得不到我想得到的..
你们都太偏心..

其实每个人都有每个人的顾虑,
我何尝不是?
只是不想面对..

起跑后绝不撤退..

Monday, June 7, 2010

昨天傍晚和妹妹去骑脚车,
发觉到原来她比我自己更会保护我..

我们踏到一个吃板面的地方去meet妈妈,
然后有一个看起来30多岁的华人走过来跟我讲话..

他问我几岁、读哪里、做么酱高、
问我的名字、问我的电话号码,讲下次约我去shopping还有很多废话..

我答了前面三个问题,
想不要理他就走掉,可是不敢..

到后面三个问题,
我就没有讲话了,一只看去别的地方..

妹妹看到了,
大大声喊:"走啦!"

然后我就跟那个人讲拜拜,
跟我妹妹走了..

临走前,
妹妹对那个陌生人留下了一句很大声的: "痴线的!!"

.....

我跟在她后面,
看着她..
发觉她真的长大了..
不像我..

她会保护自己,
我不会..
她敢大声喊陌生人,
我不敢..

如果当时妹妹不在,
我真的就一直跟那个陌生人讲话了..
我知道他是陌生人,
可是就是不敢叫他diam..
可是妹妹敢..

我知道为什么妹妹会说以后要保护我了..
之前她这样对我说的时候,
我还说:
"你省回啦, 我保护你就差不多."
可是原来,
真的是我被她保护^^

有这个妹妹真的不错..

Thursday, June 3, 2010

时间真的飞很快..
是我停留在原地还是别人在变?
青艳说过:
"世界上唯一不变的东西就是全部东西都在变".

我可以执著地说我没有变..
我一样会笑,
我一样会哭,
我一样不喜欢骗人,
我一样很喜欢吃东西..
我一样不管开心和不开心,吃东西就没事..

只是,
我不再是那个做东西可以不顾后果的嘉敏,
我不再是那个吃东西可以不顾身材的嘉敏,
我不再是那个要做就做,管它对还是错的嘉敏,
我不再是那个可以在任何时候都笑得出来的嘉敏,
我不再是那个可以不开心就流眼泪的嘉敏..

因为环境和责任,
我变了,长大了,成熟了,会想了..
我的朋友变了..
旧朋友还是朋友,
还是我永远的好朋友,
只是, 说话的时间少了..

导致那个霸占我生命8年的他说:
"跟她再也没有一起唱花式练动作的习惯..
更别说"对称"这个字是已经离我们多远了..
我们也没有经常走那充满回忆的jln st thomas和搭巴士了..
更别说两人在联课碰面的机会有多少..
我们也没有吃6点半场的早餐的习惯..
更别说放学后会见个面喝个茶吃个饭..
只是偶尔还会想起有这个朋友而去维持维持下.."

少了联络, 自然就多了一份隔膜..
何止他?

莉萍, 伟爵, 如恩, 青艳, 嘉雯
不也令我感觉害怕甚至恐惧?

妈的妈的他妈的..

我不要这样
最近很烦很累

我可不可以找到一个人的肩膀,
然后让我哭过就算了..

我可不可以找到一个得空的时间和一个适合的人,
然后大吃一餐就算了..

我可不可以找到一个适合的借口和理由,
然后逃避所有我不想面对的东西..



原来我一直以来觉得的,
都不是别人所觉得的..

原来我一直相信的,
对别人来说都是不切实际的..

我又被骗了..

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

最近很累,
但很开心^^

做食物最大的成就感就是
吃的人开心^^

Friday, May 28, 2010

今天不开心

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Unforgettable

First of all, it was almost two weeks since my birthday,
But I insisted to write this down because I wanted this day to be immortalized as one of my important days in my life..

Overall,
i was really damn happy this day..
i swear and bet that i could never obliterate this day from my memories..

Early in the morning, about 7 in the morning if i weren't wrong,
Tee You asked me to go for discussion for the performance's opening at the canteen..
Frankly speaking, i know she asked me to go down deliberately..
so i gave her enough cooperation^^, and i go down..

i was eating "gai sze ho fan"..
Suddenly, i saw a crowd walking towards me..
They are "semi-old"!!
My tears poured out incontrollable..
They made me lose my bearings and i was shocked and surprised..
i remember shi wei told me that he didn't plan to ask any of them to celebrate with me~
in fact, he deceived me..

so, i wiped off my tears and sang birthday song with them,
after that, they gave me their presents and we took some pictures..

The most unforgettable is, THE CAKE~
i saw the wordsTHE BEST LEADER, KAH MUNGwhich was written down on the cake.
伟进 told me, at the former the worker at the bakery said he/she was unable to write so many words in such a limited space,
but 伟进 scolded he/she and the worker is forced to write it down..
I was.. Speechless because… he is so stubborn and stupid, and
MAKE ME CRAZY FOR THEM!!

THANK YOU..
ALL OF YOU..
MY 17th’s BIRTHDAY BECAME COLOURFUL BECAUSE OF YOU ALL...
I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH…

After finishing the cake, we went upstairs...
My class’s sport period was cancelled unreasonable...
I don care so much since it is irrelevant and pointless to me...

But then, I received a piece of BLUE PAPER...
It is from the discipline department...
Again. However,
It happened within my expectation..

I went straightly to the discipline room...
As I entered the room, I saw 伟进 was sitting in front of Jennifer...
Haiz...
“Never mind, just manage it!!” I told myself...

I’m sad when I saw 伟进 was scolded by teacher,
Truly speaking, I don’t mind to undertake my faults and accept the punishment,
But I really mind when I saw him scolded by teacher.
He was so innocent.
What the fuck!

Then 伟进 was told to go back class earlier,
And I finally seized the opportunity to say something to Jennifer.

Finally, settled^^
And they are safe^^

Then I went back to classroom.
No special affair was happened until the 2nd recess time.

I ate the cake with Yen Yee,
(Although we both found ants~)
Tasted nice what!!
(Luckily the ants didn’t destroy the cake)

Then I had my lunch with LI PENG.
Yoh, it is hard to come by baby~
We both talked a lot,
The feel is still here^^

After school,
Shi Wei presented me his hand-made
slideshow.
It was really touching.
The video cherished the days we had together,
The sadness we passed through together,
And the joy we have had together.

“They” said,
You make a lot of efforts to complete the slideshow.
Thank you,
My best friend,
You’re really irreplaceable.

I love my 17th’s birthday.
It is the emblem of my growing stage,
It signifies that I have passed through 17 years of my life and imperceptibly turns into maturity.
I’m growing up,

Hence I have to be tough,
Hence I have to be sensible,
Hence I have to shoulder on some incumbencies
Which these are what I hope to be evaded since I was young.


However,

Thanks 静谚and 煜凯.. I love the shirts^^

Thanks 智豪(赵)..
I love the piggy bank^^

Thanks 小俊 ^^
For the cup,
Not to forget our agree on the sport day yeah~

Thanks 小进,
For the cake.
You are the martyr I think^^
How unlucky you are~
But really thank you so much.

Thank all the “semi-old”,
For the drumstick.
Actually this is from all of them I think~
Trustily, I don know who gave me this^^
But I promise that I won’t use it~
I’ll keep it in a good condition.

Thanks Weilun.
I was so surprise to receive your gifts.

Thanks Tee You for the necklace,
It is graceful.

Thanks Kuai Ping and Kher Jia for the bathrobe,
Let’s go for sauna^^

Thanks Kher Jia for the birthday card,
And also Kuai Ping and Yen Yee who wrote the card.

Thanks Yen Yee for the BB Cream,
Although I don’t know the ways to apply it^^

Thanks Li Peng for the photo frame,
It was touched when I saw it,
It’s beautiful, and symbolic!

Thanks Shi Wei, Debbie, and Yi Yan for the purse.
I love it so much.

Thanks Carol for the SUSHI,
And the biscuits..
And the words “在没有我的日子里,决不会让你饿肚子”!!!
So touch!!!
胜利者~ IKO’s spokesman^^

Thanks Shi Wei for the sweets,
Although it is tasted very sweet,
But I ate it^^

Thanks Shi Wei for the mitten^^
I really really love it and it is what I need.
Thank you, for knowing me well.

Thanks Shi Wei for the pillow,
Actually I know why you bought this.
Because you said: 我是一个不睡会死的人.
It’s true!!!

Thanks Xiao Ping, Ying Yee, Jia Han, Wei Xiong, Jun Jian and ( I’ve already forgotten)
For the bikini swim suit,
Although I am quite abase with my body figure.

Thanks you all for the goggles,
Let’s move to Sunway Lagoon!!

Thanks Shi Wei for the earrings.
It looks good^^

Thanks my dad and mum for the watch,
I know my mum always remember what I have said indeliberately.

Thanks my sis for the T-backs.
For this, I’m speechless =.=

Thanks Yi Jie for the wallet,
I know it was the LAST one^^

Thanks Shi Wei for completing the “semi-old” ’s card.

Thanks Yi Yan for the Secret Recipes’ cake^^

Thanks Debbie, Yi Yan, Shi Wei and Wooi Chuey for accompanying me the whole day.

Overall,
Thanks all of you^^

如果某一天我伤心失落崩溃到一个爆点了,
我想,
救会我的会是这一天。


真的谢谢你们。